there’s a story in Exodus about Moses raising his arms to heaven during battle. But his arms grew weak & heavy and as he lowered them to his side, they began to lose against their enemy. When he would raise them again, they would begin to win. Finally, his friends saw his tired arms and they raised both arms for him. And then won. Moses built an alter and the Lord told him to name it, “the Lord is my Banner.” Jehovah Nissi. There’s something Holy in war and chaos and choosing to declare even still that He is a Banner over us. there’s something Holy and humble in growing tired and trusting the strength of believers around you to keep you lifted Heavenward. there’s something Holy in remaining silent, and believing in who He says you are is your identity. theres a Holy finding in using your voice , even with the enemies foot on your throat. theres a Holy thing in messing up countless times and still having Jesus walk us home. there’s a joy in this season , 29 weeks pregnant, being a mother in the quiet and unseen, listening to my husband on a live stream pray about righteousness and sanctifying ourselves while doing the dishes and little boys yelling in the background, feeling far from those words but even still He can be found there. He is our Banner and we are hidden under that name. We are able to fear no evil though it rages all around. Jehova Nissi, doing a Holy thing in my womb knitting our 3rd baby boy, all the while doing a Holy thing in the world today , crashing down idols and exposing evil and making His Name greater than all other names. His hand gentle enough to create a precious baby and fierce enough to crush any fire breathing dragon. And there is sin and there is chaos and this is the mess we chose , and even still , His Banner over us remains love. a love that fights for His children to come home.
Then the Lord said to Moses, “Write this for a memorial in the book and recount it in the hearing of Joshua, that I will utterly blot out the remembrance of Amalek from under heaven.” And Moses built an altar and called its name, The-Lord-Is-My-Banner; exodus 17