My husband & I were praying together the other night, and as he prayed he asked the Father for some things that were desires within us. I’m reading through a book that is making the scales fall off of my eyes. Why I am the way I am and why I view the Father for who He’s not as my Father.

The thing I have never trusted Father with is provision. And the other day after I read my book, I’m making dinner and it felt like the Holy Spirit literally downloaded the revelation of why I don’t go to the Father when I’m in need. I said out loud, “Holy crap!” And had to immediately write it all down. I’m realizing there’s always, always new levels of healing. And as it never gets easier, it’s always so worth it. The new levels of freedom He invites us to always come with a sense of relief and deeper intimacy and friendship with Jesus.

So as my husband was praying for the desires of my heart, he said, “God has been giving us the desires of our hearts. And I know this is a desire of your heart. And I think he’s going to keep His track record. ”

Something in those words moved me. There’s something about being a daughter that leaves you longing to be seen & known & loved & protected & pursued by a father. And I know that will always remain void with my earthly dad. But the Father continually reaches out to hold my hand, taking on that role of a strong dad. And so often He places spiritual father’s in our life to guide us along the way, if we receive them. I’m not an orphan and I know where my home is.

When you know you are really loved by a Father, it changes everything. Even if your earthly father isn’t present and you have no idea how to receive a Father, we have a Heavenly Father who created all things. Though He created the universe, His longing is to be so intimate with our hearts right here and now.

This is just too wonderful, too deep and incomprehensible! Your understanding of me brings me wonder and strength.


anxious for nothing

There’s a song we sing in church, I’m sure you’ve sung it, by now too. And everytime it’s sung, I believe it and feel it in my bones & deep in my heart. Prophesying it over our life. My favorite part of the song says,

Even when I don’t see it, You’re working
Even when I don’t feel it, You’re working
You never stop, You never stop working
You never stop, You never stop working

It’s so true and the truth of the Father working on our behalf, even when we don’t see or feel it, gives us a transcending peace. We are able to sleep at night, full of peace, knowing that even through the night the Father is doing the work and fighting the battle on our behalf.

I’m sure you’ve wandered through a season of anticipation. Maybe it only lasted a few weeks, or months, but sometimes it’s years. Sometimes there are moments in those seasons where an anxious heart takes over. I have found myself asking in those moments, how long, O Lord? One thing I know for sure, is He always provides enough for the day. In times of anxiousness, Sometimes my thoughts take over,

but I’ve learned (and am still learning) to stop and ask the Father if there is a lie I’m believing about the situation.

I ask for prayer from my husband, a mentor or close friend.

I pray and lean into the Father’s chest.

I read scripture proclaiming the truth.

…and seeing the Father comfort, show up, provide over each situation, I continually come out on the other side telling myself,

I was anxious for nothing.

In times of anxiousness, turn to those you know have your best interest in mind. Turn to someone you know will direct you to the Father’s heart, and not let you run wild with your thoughts. I always make sure I go to someone who has always been edifying or someone who has done more life & much wiser than I am.

My friend shared with me last night a piece of a devotional she had read the other morning:

Hope in Me, and you will be protected. Hope is like a golden cord connecting you to heaven. The more you cling to this cord, the more I bear the weight of your burdens; thus, you are lightened. Heaviness is not of My kingdom. Cling to hope, and My rays of Light will reach you through the darkness.


So now we come freely & boldly to where love is enthroned, to receive mercy’s kiss and discover the grace we urgently need to strengthen us in our time of weakness.

Hebrews 4:16

Don’t be pulled in different directions or worried about a thing. Be saturated in prayer throughout each day, offering your faith-filled requests before God with overflowing gratitude. Tell Him every detail of your life, then God’s wonderful peace that transcends human understanding, will make the answers known to you through Jesus. So keep your thoughts continually fixed on that is authentic and real, honorable & admirable, pure & holy, merciful & kind. & fasten your thoughts on every glorious work of God, praising Him always.

Philippians 4