Despite how we may feel, the Father isn’t distant from us. Even when we don’t enter in expecting, He has the heart to draw us in and sing something new over us. I’m thankful for the moments my daughter heart naturally wants to push Him away because of questions and frustration & feeling too much yet not enough, but His Father heart continues to completely wreck me and knit me closer to Him than before. He won’t relent and I’m left in so much awe & wonder of that reality. My mother in law said it best, our tears aren’t a bad thing ..and He’s teaching us how to cry in the best way with Him again.

This photo of my husband watching our son with so much joy, reminds me of this scripture:

Don’t be afraid, don’t despair. God is present among you, a strong warrior to save you. He will take delight in you with gladness. With His love, He will calm down all of your fears. He will rejoice over you with joyful songs.

Zephaniah 3

I see a cloud

I see a cloud. ☁️ I’ve learned that when God places something in you, it’s not going to be logical to others. But He moves the mightiest in the illogical. It’s when we are in the tension. It’s when we don’t see a way. It’s when others say you should probably do this, but you know in your heart of hearts the way that doesn’t make sense is where the Father is leading. It’s when we are so close to giving up, but we come back a 7th time, and see a cloud. The best thing about my husband is the way he never loses vision or faith. I often find myself looking to him & reporting back, I don’t see anything.. and I can always always count on him to be in deep prayer with the Father only to speak over me and say, look again.. and I do, and I see a cloud.. Whatever you’ve been praying for, whatever the Father has promised you, Don’t give up. Keep showing up like it’s already arrived. ☁️ “I don’t see a thing.” “Keep looking,” said Elijah, “seven times if necessary.” And sure enough, the seventh time he said, “I see a cloud! But very small, no bigger than someone’s hand, rising out of the sea.” Things happened fast. The sky grew black with wind-driven clouds, and then a huge cloudburst of rain, with Ahab hightailing it in his chariot for Jezreel. And God strengthened Elijah mightily.

1 Kings 18

the greatest story

A theme we prayed this morning was the way the Father purifies our hearts, like the first snowfall, pure & white. No foot prints have sunk into it yet. & that is what He does to our hearts when we give ourselves to Him. Over and over again. There’s not a single thing we can do that He can’t lay a fresh blanket of pure snow over if we let Him. there is freedom in Jesus & we get to be our most free self when we are in full communion with Him. He’s not looking for impressive people. Or people who have all of the knowledge. Or people who claim perfection. He just wants you. Me. To sit at the dinner table together & talk about the greatest story that’s ever been told. He is the only satisfying thing and He is so hungry for His children. Calling every single one back home. And in return, whether we’ve realized it or not, we are so hungry for You, Jesus. You’re the greatest story that’s ever been told.